Thoughts of a Teenager

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: I Have To Stop And Think

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Sometimes I just get so caught up in the moment, I don’t realize what I’m getting myself in to, ingeminating certain scenarios in my life that I’ve told myself that I’d never want to repeat. Getting caught up in “the moment”, will only make you realize how foolish you are once the moment is…

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What can I say?

You were like a goddess to me,

Powerful & Beautiful.

I was wrong.

Dead Wrong.

You’ve changed since middle school.

Not so sweet now,

In all honest,

I didn’t feel like we had a friendship

I just felt like your toy,

Thrown around whenever you were bored.

You made me feel like shit on multiple occasions

I can understand,

You didn’t grow up in the best situations.

Being surrounded by gangs and drugs and death and what not.

That isn’t an excuse.

I was your “gay best friend”.

The Biggest lie I heard.

You never once included me in your life.

Unless, of course, I was the only one there.

However,

I will say this.

You did teach me one thing.

You taught me to be strong,

You taught me to stand up for myself.

And for that I am greatful.

I tried

I honestly tried

I want to be a part of your amazing life

I wanted to be a close friend of yours

But you never once realized,

Never realized that I did give up a lot for you,

Never realized that when you needed someone to talk to, I was there

Never realized that I was always tried to give you the best relationship advice.

And for what?

You forget my name.

You neglect to include me.

You don’t even care to help me when I need it.

Of course I’m bitter,

But, even so,

I’m glad I met you.

You were a good guy to hang out with

Never judged me when I told you something bad I did

So yeah,

You aren’t the greatest person

But,

You had a sizable influence in my life

I just got an idea for a personal project… hmmm

Seems like years since I’ve last typed anything.

It’s only been a week or so.

Just so much to do, not enough time to do what I really enjoy….

Well what to say…

There’s only a few weeks of school ‘till summer then I’m a senior.

It’s such a frightening idea.

On one hand, I have one more year of high school which is great knowing.

On the other, I have one more year of high school then I won’t see my friends again.

That’s what’s eating away at me,

I’m growing up,

Getting old.

And English class isn’t really helping me either.

Writing those personal essays is breaking me.

Recalling how much I’ve grown in the last year,

Few years,

Since I was born.

I’ve matured too much, at least that’s what I say.

Life is a bitch,

I can’t say it anymore crudely then that.

I don’t even know what I’m gonna do with myself,

I always say I know what I wanna do,

But in reality,

I’m just as clueless as the rest.

Gahhh!

I need to sort all of this.

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